Sunday, June 08, 2008

A sudden surge of emotion

What i am to do after i finish my studies?

I am torned between my wants and the expectations of those who loves me. It's not that i don't miss them, but i am not prepared to give up my new found independance....for now. I decide every aspect of my life when i am here. I am free to go whenever and whereever as my hearts desire. I answer to no one.

It scares me sometimes to think that i might lose all that when i return back to Malaysia. To be honest, there is not much to go back to except of course to the people who loves me and who i love a lot as well. But other than that, i'm not very sure why i should return back to a country which does not treat all of it's citizens equally. Why the discrimination?

Family is love. But sometimes too much love can feel suffocating. As i have mentioned, i feel torned...

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