No time...

I have so many things to do!! Tons of stuff to settle in a months time! I can't believe it, i will be leaving the country for a whole year. Never in my 23 years of life have i ever imagined that i would have the chance to go abroad, and for a year too. However, i don't seem to have the time to feel excited. There's just so many unfinished matters to attend to. I have to buy a laptop, renew my passport, apply for a visa, settle my accommodation, book my flight, blah blah blah.
Perhaps i will begin to feel the excitement of it all at the airport. Hmm, or maybe not..at that time, i will most probally be concentrating on getting myself in one piece to Newcastle, not some strange country. Yup, me parents are betting that i will end up boarding the wrong plane during the transit. Nice. I don't really blame them, and i AM well known for my blurness. ..yes i admit it. Frankly, i'm a little worried myself. I plan to take KLM airlines( it's dutch). Departing from KLIA, transiting at Amsterdam, and finally arriving in Newcastle airport, where international students will be greeted by representatives from the university. At least i won't have to find my own way to the University :P
This is definately no bed of roses. Guys, i am so scared! The finances are more than i thought. Everything involves moolah, money, dough..it does make the world go round. I feel so bad that my parents have to sponsor my living expenses. What if i don't make it there? What if i dissapoint them? The pressure and thought of that is eating me inside. Maybe that's the other reason why i don't feel the exitement yet. It's on my mind every minute..Did i make the right decision? I must be crazy. Trading my VERY comfortable life now for the unknown. Would someone knock me back to my senses.
I do not want to trouble my parents. That is why i plan to apply for a study loan from MCA. Applications opens from Sept 1st. I hope it will be approved before i leave for UK. In the mean time, i will find out if there are any other interest free loans that i can apply to.
Went for the predeparture briefing yesterday. Meet other Malaysians who will be studying in the same university. Sad to say, i think i am the only one pursuing postgraduate studies. Most of the others are 3rd year engineering and law undergraduate twinning students. I'm also scared that i would not be able to fit in over there.
I will also miss my working place very much. It's difficult for a fresh graduate to find a job nowdays. I am very lucky that i found a good one, which i will be letting go soon. Darn, this is so hard.
Will keep you guys updated :)